I missed 3 days of my medicine

and had a melt down yesterday. I switched the dose from night to morning, but I kept forgetting to take it in the morning. First, I got a little manic and was organizing, drawing, cleaning my house and writing. Then I sank into a deep depression followed by a mixed state where a friend of mine made me extremely angry. (I haven't felt angry in 6 years since being on Abilify.) I knew I was in a mixed state and it would be a matter of time before feeling suicidal. So, I took my sleeping meds to knock me out. It worked. I awoke to a brand new day. Took my Abilify last night and this morning. I MUST stay on my medication. I've done so well for 6 years, I'd almost convinced myself that maybe I could come off the Abilify since it is so expensive. Yesterday proves I cannot go off Abilify. It works!